Growing up as an INTP female, I always felt a little bit like, well, a freak. I never seemed to fit in with the other girls. In my adult years, I can’t say much has changed. In many ways, I meet the INTP stereotypes, literally to a T. Logic guides most of my decisions. I’ve been called “critical” more times than I can count. Video games and virtual worlds are much more comfortable for me than the actual world. And from school to work, I have long been shot with the accusation that I’m “not meeting my potential.” Being a female INTP, I make up just 2 percent of the population. In the past, I really did try my best fit in, but over time I’ve learned to say, “F*ck it, this is me.”
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If you’re an INTP female like me, here are five struggles you can probably relate to. I can’t speak for every INTP, but I believe this list is generally true:
1. Significant others call me “confusing.”
As an INTP, explaining my feelings has never been my forte. Conversations about emotions make my brain automatically say “abort mission.” They say communication is key to relationships and yet that has probably been the one thing I struggle with the most. When I begin to feel emotions in a relationship, I tend to keep them to myself, hoping that through my actions the other person will simply “figure it out.” Many times, however, that has left me in situations where I and the other person are on completely different pages. This was the case recently with a guy I was casually dating. He ended up thinking our relationship was a lot more than it was. Me not being able to accurately communicate in that situation left him labeling me as “too confusing” and writing me off. His loss.
2. I’m comfortable with chaos.
INTPs rarely live their lives in an overly structured or organized manner. I myself am often absent-minded to a fault and hardly take notice of a mess even if I am living in it. For my entire life, there has always been a large pile of clothes, shoes, and other things on my bedroom floor. Mundane tasks, such as cleaning and organizing, just feel impossible if not unnecessary. While living in my college dorm, I lost my hairdryer for a solid week and accused numerous dorm mates of taking it. Only later did I discover that it was under a massive pile junk on top of my bed. I literally had been sleeping on it for a week. Have I mentioned I hate cleaning?
3. My authenticity is often questioned.
Like I said, in a lot of ways, I meet the INTP stereotypes. Consequently, I often contradict the stereotypes for females. This leaves me in many situations where men question if I am being “authentic.” Once on a Tinder date, I brought up that I spend a good amount of time playing my PS4. When we got back to his place, he handed me his Xbox controller and told me to “prove my self-proclaimed gaming skills.” To say the least, I never went out with him again. Yes, I enjoy videos games. No, I do not just say that to appeal to men. And no, I am not going to prove myself to anyone.
4. Self-care just isn’t a top priority.
The expectation of self-care for females is ridiculously unfair in my opinion. That being said, I consequently struggle to keep up. Washing my hair every day, or even every other day, just feels like far too much effort to me. Dry shampoo is a lifesaver. Putting on makeup every day for my office job is draining. Finding different outfit combinations seems like a waste of energy; sometimes I truly miss school uniforms.
5. Relating to other females is a challenge.
Making conversation around the office or at social events is something that I’ve never quite fully understood. I’m terrible at small talk. I can’t see the point of it, nor am I able to think of trivial questions with ease. The best approach I’ve learned is to copy the conversation starters I’ve heard from others. “Nice shoes, where did you get them?” is one of my main go-to phrases. And while it might seem like it, no, I am not a robot.
While dating or being a friend to an INTP might seem like a challenge, there are some perks. Getting us out of the solitude of our bedrooms might take some work, but, if you can, we love to engage in stimulating conversations. We don’t demand much of people, we’re easy-going, and what many don’t expect is that INTPs truly appreciate affection. Take the time to let us get comfortable with you before writing us off, because we’re worth the effort.
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